[LynNie-fication]

Monday, February 26, 2007

.|.The kid.|.

[Teen Titans.. Yes, i still watch cartoons. =)]

Date: 27th February 2007
Mood/status: Busy..busy..busy
Music: That girl, Frankie J

Someone: I was wondering.. How come you're so childish, like so open and talk so much wan?
Lyn: *thinks* Well, i suppose that while i still can, i'd like to enjoy being a child.

The kid,
~LynNie.

*big cheesy smile* =D

11:10 PM Z

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Sunday, February 18, 2007

.|.A thought for the Chinese New Year.|.

Date: 18th February 2007
Music: I knew i loved you, Savage Garden [V-Day's lovey-dovey mood hangover. xD]
Mood: Content.

Today during Sunday service where Pastor Hong Seng was speaking/ delivering the sermon, the emphasis on how we can put on a facade and masquerade around really hit me. Suppose that all the cliche'd lines like "listen to yoour heart" or "follow your heart" or "what does your heart tell you?" actually do have some importance in them. And i'm not simply referring to when in a relationship. Suppose that somethimes we can do things that are so routine that we forget their significance and meaning. And that sometimes we just need to step back and check what's in our hearts. Whether they are set right. I know i do. Like the simple act of coming to church. After a while of attending church regularly, i've come to take it as a session where i expect to hear something that is of God. Something that would impact the rest of my week. Shamefully, i forget about the Body. The other people that i'm supposed to fellowship with. The cell girls that i'm suppose to show them that i sayang them. The simple gesture of going over to my cell leader and giving her a hug, just because. Well, just pray that i'll get my heart set right again. To remember that attending church is not a seminar where you just get something then leave. FGT is a place where we call home. Where i call home. A home whose occupants i choose to no longer neglect.

Purify my heart,
Let me be as gold,
And precious silver,
Purify my heart,
Let me be as gold,
Pure gold.

Refiner's fire,
My heart's one desire,
Is to be, holy,
Set apart for You Lord,
I choose to be, holy,
Set apart for You my master,
Ready to do Your will.

Purify my heart,
Cleanse me from within,
And make me holy,
Purify my heart,
Cleanse me from my sin,
Deep within.

Refiner's fire,
My heart's one desire,
Is to be, holy,
Set apart for You Lord,
I choose to be, holy,
Set apart for You my master,
Ready to do Your will,
Ready to do Your will.

Like this song because it talks about how He can and will set our hearts straight, to guide us down the right path. It also speaks of how even though we're set apart from the norm, how we're made different just so we can be in His plan, so we can follow His directions accordingly, and that decision sometimes makes life hard, brings difficulties and makes people look at you in a different way, sometimes not in a good way, am reminded that all this is no sacrifice when done for a big and awesome God.

Have a great CNY week, lovelies!! =]

Hugs and smiles,
~LynNie.

5:14 AM Z

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.|.Valentines Day, Chinese New Year, and such..|.

The flowers that i got from Darling on the Valentine's Day event on Saturday [10th Feb].
Thanks.

*** The Darling mentioned above is a girl, and NO, i'm not lesbian. =]

Date: 18th February 2007
Music: I'm feeling you, Michelle Branch (featuring Santana and The Wreckers)
Mood: Mosquito-bitten. [So its not a mood, but that's about all that describes me at the moment.. xD]

Phew. It's the Chinese New Year holidays. Booya!! Hee hee, now that i've moved into the "new house", am pretty settled and relaxed. Meaning, i can stuff my face with all the CNY cookies and laze around in the house for the entire day. Unbelieveably, i actually did do that today. After the 8am Sunday service today, that is. My poor bro has food poisoning and is, as it were, under house-arrest. He's not moving anywhere but in the inside of the house. Yes, the mosquito-infested house. Okay, okay. Will get on with the post.

Valentine's Day was on a Wednesday, even if the 365 student ministry celebrated it on the Saturday before that. Being on the Valentine's Day committee, am glad that the number of people was staggering and that we didn't have enough food, or space. I mean, really. It's a real blessing and a good thing if you really think about it. Thank Jacintha for all the work she put in for the name list and name tags. And for not panicking/ PMS-ing and being totally understanding when i said i may not be able to make it. And am glad for Jenny, Chewie, and Jess who were great at handling the gila-ified registration booth. Personally, am glad that i could make it for the event in the first place. And for a fantastic V-day committee that are so dedicated as well as fun-loving. Wasn't around much for the event itself, (was downstairs at the registration table) but expect that it went well. Can only rely on His grace that the seed planted in the hearts that came for the event, will grow and bear fruit. To Abel if you read this, i'm sorry i couldn't have been a more dedicated and productive assistant. Just hope you know that i think you did a fabulous job and all that running around paid off, especially towards the end of the event. =]

Valentine's Day celebrated in school is, well... All that its expected to be. Eel has been using the anagram [S.A.D], standing for Single Awareness Day. Us single people enjoy poking fun at this particular day, though it means the world to lovey-dovey couples. To a certain extent, i have to agree with Jit Yang that Valentine's Day is nothing special. Yes, that coming from the emo-girl is indeed, rather surprising. However, let me explain why. The whole reason why i don't agree that Valentine's Day deserves all the fame, heartache to some, celebration, enthusiasm that it gets, is because i believe that if you are truly in love, everyday is Valentine's Day. Besides, who wants to spend RM 10 for a solitary rose during this season? Don't be silly.

Okay.. other than that.. Wishing all of my lovely readers a Happy Year of the Piggy. For some, i hope you can collect more ang pau this year, eat more yummy food, and for others, i hope i can collect ang pau from you next year. *coughcough* You know who you are.. =]

Happy Year of the Piggy, from Jiji Yeang, aka Oinky. =]

Hugs and smiles,
~LynNie.

4:30 AM Z

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Thursday, February 15, 2007

.|.Complain, complain....|.

[More Yeang's]
... be afraid
...be VERY afraid.

xD

Date: 15th February 2007
Music: Instigator, Kaci Brown
Mood: *mwah* .. says alot. xD

Well, haven't blogged in ages. And yes, i know, i've been putting up ton and tons of photos that have nothing else but me, me, me me, me and me in them. Well, it's a phase and i'll get over it soon enough. Okie dokie. Life has not been as easy as i hoped it would be, but i suppose that's life. I would love to ramble on and on, complain about how horrible my life has been, how i wish i could beat the living daylights out of some people, how i'd love to just hug some people until they turn blue, how i'd simply scream at many individuals as they so much as crossed the invisible line of my tolerance for them. Yes, i'm a 16 year old girl with hormones, and one of the many things that i allow them to make me is angry. I suppose its a bit difficult to be the sweet-natured person i'd rather be when my life has literally been moved around, all the way around, upside, outside, inside, backside. But then again, it's basically my fault for allowing the hereditary Yeang temper get the better of me. A few weeks back, i went through something that until now, i feel is still worth mentioning. Was on a school night, and i was all frazzled and frustrated about:
1. God
2. Homework
3. Tuition homework
4. Immature individuals
5. Valentine's Day event- if i can even make it.
6. The whole- "i am moving in like... a week" thing hadn't actually sunk in yet. Not exactly.
7. Friends
8. Packing my room
9. Uncertainty. About the present, and the future. About people, about things.
10. Editorial board issues
11. That confounded proposal that i haven't done yet
12. That certain idea that i had to be such a big mouth and propose, hence, making me entirely responsible in composing the proposal. (By any rate, the idea was rejected by En. Zol. Which, as it turns out, happens to be quite a relief, since i don't have to work on a project that is unapproved.)
13. Sentimentality
14. Daddy's persistent insistance that i throw out all the "rubbish" in my room/posession. Like stated above, i'm sentimental. I refuse to throw out things that remind me of thing, places, or people that are important to me. ie: that giant card i got at my Sweet 16 surprise bash. Though totally unnecessary in one's everyday life, i couldn't bear to throw it away. I mean, could you? And Eel, don't worry. I merely took the A4 papers containing the signatures, out from the larger piece of manila cardboard and kept them in a file. Compromise, one of the many wonders of the human mind.
15. I was sick. As in, ill.

Anyway, was all stressed and wishing i could just sleep. Of course, with such a schedule, how could i? My mind would've refused to shut down anyway. So, dragged myself down to have dinner, only to find that we were waiting for Pat cheche to join us. (If you don't know, Pat cheche is my cousin. Her Dad is the uncle of mine that passed away just recently and she's still here even after the funeral stuff is all done, and she rightfully lives in the US.) Anyhow, we were having with sumptous dinner mummy prepared, then Dad started talking to her about the whole now-that-your-father-is-gone-there-is-no-sucessor-for-the-business-who-is-going-to-do-it drama. Apparently, Pat cheche has decided to get her degree here in Malaysia so that she can have a go at managing the business (lawyer's firm). That, despite the fact that she has a life and a husband of her own all the way in the US. I felt like my heart was going to break when she looked up with teary eyes and said "Well, don't fail me until i've at least tried" when my dad said that he didn't really like it that she was leaving her life in the US for something that she wasn't even sure would succeeed. I was sitting there and going all... "Errrmmmm..."

All in all, it woke me up. I'm not saying that it made my problems vanish, but it definitely made me look at everything that's happening around and to me in a whole new and different way. I mean, i'm worried and stressed about a proposal. So i don't have the time to do it. So what? I'm sure Pat cheche can't even get a good night's sleep in between her classes, driving to and from Penang and KL, finding a place to stay, etc. I was anxious and highly-strung about the whole sudden "you have 2 weeks to move out" thing. Puh -lease, Pat cheche hasn't even found an apartment that she can stay in while she's studying here. Friends and immature individuals? She has a husband half the globe away from her.

I won't say that i was all self-pitying (no time for that either) before the dinner, but i was very low on motivation and energy. And very very close to snapping. But i suppose that after the dinner, i realised that, hey, my life really isn't that hard, and that my own cousin is going through a whole lot more than i am. And if she can handle it with poise and sanity, so can i.

So i decided that i'll just take whatever comes my way and deal with it. And win.

With a huge cheesy smile on my face, of course...

xD.. This is the last photo of myself for a very very long time... i hope.. =]

~Life may not be the party we expected, but while we're here, we may as well dance.
[Mural by the R&R area, SMKTS]

Have a great week, darlings. And remember, when life throws lemons at you, it's time to get those squeezy-thingies and make some lemonade!!!! =]

Huggies,
~LynNie.

1:35 AM Z

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