Friday, July 28, 2006
.|...:: More insanity ::...|.
Date: 28th July 2006Music: Savin' me, NickelbackMood: Rushed
Okie dokie... This was in Physics tuition last night.. MHan and Winston came out with yet another weird list. Haiihz.. Here we go again, into the realm of insanity... Ming Han shall be pink again, and Winston orange.
25 ways to describe Yeang Su-lyn.
1. Cute
2. Some days she is more cute than normal
3. Scary when angry
4. Sexy when wearing purple
5. Smiles when praised
6. Doesn't take kindly to stalkers
7. Even more scary when you insult a song she likes
8. Lollypop-lover
9. Hates Ming Han (accident)
10. Has a 99% compatibility with Lim Ming Han when tested with the name matching test
11. Camera-shy
12. Almost always sick
13. Still is
14. So sick of being sick
15. Normally wears black
16. Looks like a ghost in a photo (one photo in Ming Han's phone)
17. Stalked by Momo
18. Wishes she was Gabriella and Ming Han was her Troy (High School Musical)
19.Very cute
20.Friendly
21.Is spelled Su-lyn, not Sue Lynn
22.Look out for her fingers and pinches
23.Fantasizes about Ming Han all day long
24.Pink-faced
25.Flustered (after reading this list)
Winston would like to state that he was not involved in any way in the creation of the above.
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Comments later, i have Chemistry then have Prayer Meeting to go to.. Take care, my lovely readers.
Hugs and smiles, [Glares for Ming Han and Winston],
~LynNie
1:22 AM Z
.|...:: Back again ::...|.
Date: 28th July 2006Music: At the beginning, Richard Marx and Donna LewisMood: HappyHey, i'm back. Sheesh, haven't been posting ,much. I guess that i've been pretty busy, being tied down with loads of stuff. But i guess that it's better that i'm busy rather than just loitering around at home. Anywayz, school has been quite fun, as we had the Prefects' Installation today, so i totally missed Physics (the ultimate dread on a Friday..) Sitting between Winnie and Jessica in the hall, bored out of my mind. Still, it's better than Physics la.. Was drawing a swirly bracelet on my left wrist, wasting Jessica's purple ink. However, i seem to be somewhat of an artist, as Michelle and Sarah wanted me to draw it for them too. Oh, did i just praise myself? xD Nah.. Just playing. Missed EST because was with Wai Yan, looking for Puan Yip to get the letters for her Leo Installation Deco. which is .. tomorrow. Went to Block C, canteen, Block D, back to Block C, Block B, Block A, then went to check the canteen again, and Mr. Beh, for some weird reason knew where she was, and we left for Block A again. Sheeesh..
"Wai Yan, you had better love me more after this" (Lyn, out of exasperation and weariness)
To which, she gave me an air-kiss. [The one where you just kiss the air beside someone's cheek when greeting them. Uusally done in Western countries..] Yes, we do that alot in my class. Speaking of kisses, Jessica went mad yesterday and attempted to kiss me. According to her, it was because she needed a guy to kiss her and that i would suffice. So she ended up getting the back of my hand which was covering my mouth. ERM.. And that during recess, Mia and I were freaking Win out by doing our presentation of Gackt's U+K, "Nya-nya"-ing around the canteen. JA just gave us this really amused / confused look. However, I have to admit that out of all this insanity, it's my friends are the ones who keep me sane. Okie.. just a little bit of sharing here, i like this poem that we did in school. Funny that i should find a piece of literature that i actually appreciate in school. I love the Phantom of The Opera, but the one in school is the abridged version, so it doesn't count.. Anyway, here it is.. The poem, that is. Think about it, it's profound, and yet so simple.
If you can keep your head when all about you,
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you;
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too;
If you can wait and not be tired of waiting,
Or being lied about don't deal with lies,
Or being hated don't give way to hating,
And yet don't look to good, nor talk too wise;
If you can dream-and not make dreams your master;
If you can think-and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster,
And treat those two imposters just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken,
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,
And stoop and build 'em up with worn-out tools;
If you can make one heap of all your winnings,
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings,
And never breathe a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew,
To serve your turn long after theyare gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you,
Except the Will which says to them : "Hold on!"
If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with Kings-nor lose the common touch;
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you;
If all men count with you -but none too much;
If you can fill the unforgiving minute,
With sixty seconds' worth of distance run,
Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,
And- which is more -You'll be a Man, my son!
[If, Rudyard Kipling]
Okay, so i'm not the son the father is referring to, but i think that this poem has some really great virtues that we can apply in life. That's why i really like this poem. Okie... will post something else in another post.. Ciao for now, my dears!
Hugs and smiles,
~LynNie.
12:50 AM Z
Wednesday, July 19, 2006
.|...:: Blessed ::...|.
Date: 20th July 2006Mood: AliveMusic: The sound of silence~ * A friend is someone who walks in when the rest of the world walks out * ~Hey there, people. Just a short post from me here, have to go for tuition later on. But today has been a really eventful and sparky day. Just a few things..
1. No Physics
2. Watching people's butts being caned for the "Pencegah Jenayah" talk.
3. Marking Diagnostic tests papers for the Form 3 students.. Laughing so hard until my sides were aching.
4. Got the "Librarian Minutes" handed in. [FINALLY!!]
Weelll, if i'd explain it in detail, it'd be far more interesting, but i'll spare you people (and my keyboard) the pain. By the way, this is officially the first time that i am reporting to you guys from my new computer!! Bwahahahahahaaaa.. Yes, the crazy psychopath has yet another machine to aid her with terrorising the world wide web!! xD
Lolz. Anyway, i've entitled this post "Blessed". No, you can't see it, beacause it only registers under my Blogger page. Very weird and strange, you wouldn't know it unless i tell you, but i'm telling you now. So anyhow, i'm blessed. Adn here's why.. On Monday i was kinda down and a bit sulky with Joshua an Ee Ling for some stupid and childish reason which i'd rather not expand on. It was stupid to begin with, so i shan't bother explaining it. But the point is that i reached the point that i felt that i was insignificant in their lives, that i was, as Hua often puts it, "keh leh feh". I'm sure it's the hormones. But i guess that i just brushed it off that day and guys, when i did apologise to you, thanks for understanding. But the more important point is that today, they were trying to keep something from me. Note the word 'trying'. Josh said to Eel "Ee Ling, we have a problem,". Yes, and being the 'pak kuah' person i am, i dug it out from them during the "Ceramah Pencegah Jenayah". To be straight and honest, they were worried that due to certain circumstances, that the hypersensitive me would be feeling hurt, down, depressed, etc. So that's why they said "Lyn, just know that we love you." and that made the whole world of difference to me. All this while when dealing with people on my tagboard [yes, i'm being specific now] i got affected by it. It made life difficult to go through, it made days difficult to swallow. All this while i felt that i was so stupid that i could make someone hate me so much. So stupid for not being able to do somethinga about it. But now i realise, the stupidest thing that i've done was not think those useless, self-undermining and unproductive thoughts, but to ever think for just one second that my pet bro and my best friend could ever not care about me. For all your care, concern and love that you have for me, i thank you guys. You make days so much easier to go through, you make all the shit in my life so much easier to accept. You guys are always there for me whenever i'm down, you're always easy to find when i'm happy. For all that, words cannot express how grateful i am to you and i just want you guys to know that i love you so so much. *hugs*
PS: To all my friends, it's not that i don't appreciate you just as much, but it's more of the fact that like anonymous said, Josh and Eel know what kind of shit i've been through, and anonymous probably thinks that they hate anonymous for it, but i never called anonymous any names i shouldn't, i never said that they should stop being friends with anonymous. I believe that Eel and Josh can keep their cool about this whole thing and not go and hate anonymous for all this. As a matter of fact, i'm sure they still mix with anonymous. And in the same way, that's the reason why i don't think i'd just go around and tell everyone about this thing and make things complicated for you people. So believe me when i say "You don't want to know". But remember that i still sayang all of you, kay?
Take care darlings!! =]
More than i could hope or dream of,
You have poured your favour on me,
One day in the house of God is,
Better than a thousand days in the world.
So blessed,
I can't contain it,
So much i've gotta give it away,
Your love taught me to live now,
You are more than enough for me.
Lord, you're more than enough for me,
Lord you're more than enough for me!!
Hugs and smiles,
~LynNie.
11:47 PM Z
Friday, July 14, 2006
.|...:: Rested ::...|.
Date: 14th July 2006
Mood: None in particular
Music: Ultimate, Lindsay Lohan
Nyaaaah. *stretches lazily* Yes. Yet again, i haven't been to school. No, i'm not dropping out or anyhting. Just that i think my body is sort of failing me. Yesterday i could barely get out of bed as my back hurt so much when i tried to sit up. Was a lucky thing that i put my handphone on the lower shelf so i could just reach up and get it. Messaged Estee and my transport auntie that i would be M.I.A. For the rest of the day, was sitting either at my desk doing homewrok or in front of the computer table, a hot pack securely placed between me and the chair. No, i don't have a back problem, and Estee, i DON'T have a spinal problem!! Why did you tell Kye Ling that?? Anyway, according to my doctor, the pain is due to "unaccustomed exercise". Meaning coughing. Yet another quoatation by a doctor..
"If you were to suddenly be coughing for two weeks straight [by now, it's four weeks], of course you'll feel muscle cramps and aches" .. [Dr. Lum]
So yes. That's why i was M.IA yesterday. Last night had a little heart to heart chat with Daddy. The first in a loooong time. And regarding the biggie "masalah hidup" of mine, turns out that it isn't such a biggie problem after all. That's my dad. Practical and logical, but still leaves just enough room for sensitivity. Not that the advice from many others is not applicable, but i just didn't want to disturb many people last night, each for their own reasons. Well, we just talked la. And at times like that, i really look up to my dad and maybe for once in a long time, we relate. We understand. "You define yourself. Everyone goes through shit. It's just how we come out of it that makes a difference." At times like these, i remember that i'm not just Lyn. I'm Yeang. And the last thing he said was "And most importantly, remember that your family loves you." Aww...
Well, this morning, i don't know why. But i overslept. I guess i'm tired. Didn't hear the alarm. Didn't hear my maid knocking on the door. Didn't notice the sun come up. And i slept all the way to 12 in the afternoon. No, i'm not emo anymore. I won't skip school just because i'm emo. I'm a more reponsible person than that. Just tired. Like i said, i think my body's failing me. Haha. But as a rested girl, i'm ready to tackle the weekend! Back still aches a bit when i cough, but i think a little Taekwondoe will do me good. Need the exercise and i miss my friends so much!! Sorry if i've made any of you guys worry or anything with my disappearances. Thanks for your thoughtful sms'es and concern. Love you guys loads!
Hugs and smiles,
~LynNie
12:36 AM Z
Sunday, July 09, 2006
.|...:: To be or not to be ::...|.
Date: 9th July 2006
This is just me here. I figured that if i kept on writing in so many blogs, i'd lose the entire point of it. I figure that in just one blog, i can accomodate the various mood swings which i go through. God help me, that i may not always say the right things, but this is me. And in this one blog i'm going to just be one person. Leading one life, putting up one face. Yeah, i'll be shutting down, or rather, just be inactive from the other blogs. If you want to hear me, i'm here.
This post is dedicated to someone whom i'm not really at good terms with at the moment. I guess that we've had our difficulties, probably still have our differences. But now i'm just here to come clean with you, to clear the air.
"If she wants to be friends with me, then she'll have to prove it"
It's difficult. After all that happened the few weeks before the mid-term, it just got weird seeing you. It still is weird. Things between us were abit friction-ey. Maybe not for you, but to me, hey. I'm a girl. My EQ is high above any natural Qs. But yeah. Maybe it was hurtful and insulting for you that i resorted to the measures i took, i'm sorry.
Aside from that, the weeks that followed, let me clear this up. I don't hate you. I never did. I'm not mad. And as always, i'm actually wondering if you're the one who hates me as much as you think i hate you. Well, i don't hate you, i'm not flaming you on my blog. The quotation by my favourite TV doctor was put there just for laughs. If anyone, it'd be directed to the jokers Ming Han and Winston from my Physics class. If i were to hate anyone, it wouldn't be you. Because i promised myself i wouldn't. Because i believe that you're not someone whom i should hate. Because i know that you're that person who doesn't make me mad, instead, makes me smile. Doesn't make me cry, instead makes me laugh. Laugh like there was no tomorrow. Laugh until the phone bill didn't hurt. To tell the truth, i miss that. I miss you. As a matter of fact, i really do just miss that one person whom i could have bonding time with, just being myself, just letting go. Sometimes it hard to move on from things, no matter how many supporters you have. No matter how many emotional backup groups you have at the ready. Sometimes it's just that one person who can make things better. Sometimes it's that one person who just has to be there and everything is fine.
And you know what? I'm just here. I'm just Lyn. That weird girl who always says the wrong things at the wrong time. The one who just won't shut up when it comes to a debate she knows she can win, no matter how trivial and unproven the facts. The one who laughs at how you always complain about certain people. I'm just that. And you know that i treasure this [or that] friendship so much, but i'm wondering if you do. It's hard for me letting go of this friendship, but i wonder if it is for you.
So from here i'm just telling you everything straight out. Telling my best friend that it sucks to have a hate-hate relationship. That it sucks to pretend that i don't miss you. That it sucks that we can't just solve this conflict. So i'm saying to my best friend that i love you. And that if my best friend wants to solve this, that person always knows where to find me.
Lotsa love,
~Lyn.
7:11 AM Z
Saturday, July 01, 2006
.|...:: High school musical ::...|.
~ * Troy and Gabriella , High School Musical * ~Date: 1st July 2006
Music: Start of something new, Zac Efron and Vanessa A. Hudgens
Mood: Happy, inspired
Hey, people!! Nah, no biggie news from me, except that my cough is getting better.
Weeeellll, let me just say this... I LOVE HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL!!!! Oh my goodness, i was watching it on the computer, i had tears in my eyes.. Okay fine, so maybe i'm just an emo person, but i think that the plot is simple and sweet, like a typical Disney production, the actors are good looking, the set is so radiant, and the music is FANTASTIC!!! I guess i'm just a hopeless romantic and a sucker for teen love stories like this. So sue me la, but all i can say is.. a girl can dream, can't she? Hmm... there's quite a bit i want to write about this, but i don't want to spoil it for anyone.. and i've got to go soon anyway.. But basically, it's a movie that proves the power of music, magic, chemistry, enthusiasm, and love that can overcome the boundaries of cliques, the perception of the school's student (teachers included) population, breaking free of our mundane and routine lives to soar, on the wings of our dreams, passions, aspirations. Yes, yet again, euphoria is not a good muse. But i suggest to anyone who hasn't watched this amazing movie, to go and watch it!!
Oh, and a big thanks and hug to Wee Kiat for burning the HSM onto a CD for me to watch!!
Take care, my lovely readers, i shall leave you with a little lyrics that i'm simply hooked on.. !!
[Troy:]
We're soarin', flyin'
There's not a star in heaven
That we can't reach
[Gabriella:]
If we're trying
So we're breaking free
[Troy:]
You know the world can see us
In a way that's different than who we are
[Gabriella:]
Creating space between us
'Til we're separate hearts
[Both:]
But your faith it gives me strength
Strength to believe
[Chorus #1]
[Troy:]
We're breakin' free
[Gabriella:]
We're soarin'
[Troy:]
Flyin'
[Both:]
There's not a star in heaven
That we can't reach
[Troy:]
If we're trying
[Both:]
Yeah, we're breaking free
[Troy:]
Oh, we're breakin' free
[Gabriella:]
Ohhhh
[Troy:]
Can you feel it building
Like a wave the ocean just can't control
[Gabriella:]
Connected by a feeling
Ohhh, in our very souls
[Troy:]
Very souls, ohhh
[Both:]
Rising 'til it lifts us up
So everyone can see us
[Chorus #2]
[Troy:]
We're breakin' free
[Gabriella:]
We're soarin'
[Troy:]
Flyin'
[Both:]
There's not a star in heaven
That we can't reach
[Troy:]
If we're trying
Yeah we're breaking free
[Gabriella:]
Ohhhh runnin'
[Troy:]
Climbin'
To get to that place
[Both:]
To be all that we can be
[Troy:]
Now's the time
[Both:]
So we're breaking free
[Troy:]
We're breaking free
[Gabriella:]
Ohhh, yeah
[Troy:]
More than hope
More than faith
[Gabriella:]
This is true
This is fate
And together
[Both:]
We see it comin'
[Troy:]
More than you
More than me
[Gabriella:]
Not a want, but a need
[Both:]
Both of us breakin' free
[Chorus #3]
[Gabriella:]
Soarin'
[Troy:]
Flyin'
[Both:]
There's not a star in heaven
That we can't reach
If we're trying
[Troy:] Yeah we're breaking free
[Gabriella:]
Breaking free
Were runnin'
[Troy:]
Ohhhh, climbin'
[Both:]
To get to the place
To be all that we can be
Now's the time
[Troy:] Now's the time
[Gabriella:] So we're breaking free
[Troy:] Ohhh, we're breaking free
[Gabriella:] Ohhhh
[Both:]
You know the world can see us
In a way that's different than who we are
Hugs and smiles,
~LynNie
7:47 AM Z
[LynNie-fication]
-Welcome to the realm of LynNie's
unending ramblings, thoughts,
sarcastic remarks, but most
importantly, memories. Not all
great, not all gastronomical and
Earth-moving, but memories nonetheless.
The life of a girl, her hyperness, her
emo-ness, her loves, her dislikes.
Her views, her ups, her downs. All
treasured, remembered, and most importantly,
It's 100% ..
{L y n N i e - f i c a t i o n} !!!!
-Enjoy your stay, and please leave comments
if you wish. =]
~ * Troy and Gabriella , High School Musical * ~